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The name is Anita Pravitasari. People call me "anita". Likes to prefer her self as "nyt". 20 years old (There. I've changed it). Live in Jakarta-Bandung, Indonesia. In a relationship. Currently taking major in Chemical Engineering ITB. Love to write even more to read. Movie geek. Music lover. Often tired and loves sleep. Cries very easily. Is very friendly. Her ultimate fangirl crush would be with Johnny Deep *dies*. Is a spoiler whore. She hardly use a censoring system when she babbles so read at your own risks.

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I’ll hang on to my splintering ego-thank you

Saturday 26 April 2008 6:05 pm

I was reading Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keys. Just when I reached the part where Charlie and Alice got in their first quarrel, I stopped reading.
I closed the book and I put it down.

The scene won’t stop running in front of my eyes, so I closed them, put my hands over my face. But instead it got clearer.
They were saying things that made things worst.

Don’t get me wrong.
I’m happy. I’m happy for every wonderful things that happened.

But I can’t help it. That was how I feel. It undermined my self-confidence. Not just that one time.

I don’t want to torture my self in this way.
But I don’t want to let it to go. I treasure it too much. I had let it enter my life. It cracked my barrier. I’m glad I did it and never felt sorry for it.

I prayed, God, lend me strength. Please hold my hand, don’t let me drown in the darkness of my heart.

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