I was terrible. And maybe I was mean too.

If there was a way to go back and change how I acted, you betcha I would go.

You said 'I forgive you'. And I know it wasn't easy.
But sadness was still on your face and I can feel a distance.

There's a part when you said I didn't mean it. That it wasn't genuine.
That hurt. But it wasn't my place to feel hurt. So I got rid of it.

It's really hard when you know it's not enough, and it don't matter how many time I said it. But there's really nothing more I can give. That's the only way to apologize that I know. Maybe it's not the word that's not enough. Maybe I just don't know how to make it enough. Or maybe my conscience won't let it be enough.

'Sorry' involuntarily springs on our lips at the drop of a hat. You kick someone and you say "Oh, I’m Sorry". You step on someone and you say "Oh! I’m sorry". You hurt someone and you say "Oh, I’m Sorry". We say it a countless number of times in a day. Without any reason, without any gravity. However, sometimes when it is necessary, it is not so easy to assemble those ordinary five letters and give shape to a simple word. Sometimes, as the song goes, ‘Sorry seems to be the hardest word’.

I'm blank. I'm confused. I don't know what to do.
Guilt is holding me tight.

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